Next Level!

Becoming a parent is really going to the next level! I never really understood the feeling of my parents until i become one. i can tell u.. it's not easy!! please appreciate your parents ok?

suddenly my life is so completely different compare to before 11th Feb 2010! hehe.. before i can do anything i like at anytime i want! i can play ps2 anytime i want, i can read/write blog at anytime. can facebook for long hours.. enjoy my time watching TV (football for 90mins).. go yam cha with friends.. fishing.. aduh~~~ the more i type.. the more depress i will become la..

suddenly all that is taken away from me after the born of my son. so guys!! are you ready to let go of all that? i mean ALL!! Suddenly God just show me the real meaning of ALL when He told me that He took ALL my sins away! wow.. amazing.. Praise God..

okok.. come back.. to be very honest, i never knew it will be like that at all. a friend told me once.. "sleep more while u can..!" after hearing that it doesn't register in my brain at all. now i fully understand what he was trying to tell me.. but too late la.. hahaha... "IF!!!! IF ONLY" is what i can say now...

Suddenly this life of mine is not about me anymore.. not about my wife also.. Suddenly everything is about Isaac. everything just seems to run and work around Isaac. i can only sleep when he is asleep. if he dun sleep.. NOBODY sleeps!! i can only eat when he is done eating or is sleeping. sometimes too tired to eat after kautim him!

husband and wife really need to work together as a team. this is really important ok? i felt that both me and Kim are really a good team. we help one another a lot to make this new journey a lot easier. i cant do this on my own. she will collapse if i do not help her at all. i really respect those single parent la. have to raise up the children on their own. R.E.S.P.E.C.T!

BUT... it's really a joy to see him grow everyday. i really want to thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful wife and also son. i really hope that i can be a good husband and also father. i am still learning and i am willing to change my old self. to be more sacrificial and selfless. it is not easy but i believe that God will continue to give me the strength and also joy as day goes by.

when i see this..
everything is worth it!
my tears and sweat!
I love you both very much!

Artists For Haiti - We Are The World

I am really touched by this song. Enjoy!
I really believe that as we all stand united, there is nothing that can put us down!

God Bless!


p/s: the part when Celine Dion sang really bring chill to my bone!!! Damn good!!!

Hey King of Pop! I'm Isaac..
Thank you for such a wonderful song!! This pose is for you! R.I.P

Work VS Family

i think everyone will come across this path sooner or later. unless ur father is so darn rich that u do not have to worry about money or work at all.. then u will really live like the prince and princess in the story book happily ever after.. see.. even the story book also know only Prince and Princess can live happily ever after..

I am just an average guy in this world trying my best to work hard and get money to support my family. I do not have a darn rich father.. (I thank God for that! I am happy with what my parents have given me! hehe..) so now i need to pick up my own butt and work for MONEY. we can easily say that money is not important. but when come to the dinner table. no money really no talk la..

is there a job that can have the following requirement?
1. High Pay ($$$$$.$$)
2. No Stress
3. No need to travel around
4. No need to work shift
5. Flexible working hour
6. Have a lot of time for family
7. BIG Bonus every year


is this possible? if you do have a vacancy out there.. please let me know and HIRE ME!! I really need that job!

my job nature is i have to take care of the whole HOSPITAL in SARAWAK.. and Sarawak is a big piece of land. Bigger than West Malaysia. The population is not as crowded as WM. But still.. to cover Sarawak is really no joke.. i have to travel. limited flight around Sarawak. lousy road everywhere. there is no highway! what can i do?

now that i have another new member in my family. life just got more interesting. it's really not easy to take care of a small baby. if me and kim are there to take care of him then it would be alot easier. but when taking care of him alone. it's really a heavy and difficult task!

i know that family is important. but what can i do? look for another job. is it really that easy to find job in Kuching? i am so confused la.. i do not believe that there is a perfect job other there. i think now i just have to figure out another way to solve this problem. if u have any idea, please share with me. we can learn from one another.




Dear Lord,

I need Your help. Please give me wisdom to make the right decision and also show me the right direction. I want to walk in You path! Amen

i do not understand!!!

why need to do confinement?

who started this thing?

i think this is all just.... bull shit! (sorry that i have to use that word)

no shower for 1 month? come on.. you have got to be kidding me right??

no wind blowing directly? come on.. we are in Malaysia!! Bloody HOT and Humid country...

i think just these two is enough to la.. do i have to continue??

what is fullmoon?

who started this again?

we are human! we are not some kind of werewolf...

This is definitely not the same as the fullmoon party in Koh-Samui! hahaha.. I dun mind that!


I am just trying to figure out what is the theory or reason behind all these things.
I believe i am now living in a modern world. where we can all all kinds of info from google. i respect all the things my parents ask me to do. but i would love to know why! and too bad they cant give me any answer. so i am not convinced!

the best answer they can give is :"last time we also do the same!"

But that answer is not good enough for me! I need something more than that.

I will try my very best to stop all the "no logic" practice during my time. so that the next generation will not have to do that. but i will also try to find the answer first and also other method way before i do that.

Still confused!!

New Life

I am now a father. i mean a F.A.T.H.E.R! i seriously do not know how to express my feeling. i have never imagine myself as a father. wow... to be very honest. it is not easy at all.

my son came on the 11th Feb 2010. when i 1st saw him, i am really speechless. it's like meeting someone who is always with you but you have never see him before. when he was still in my wife's tummy, everynight i sing to him, i speak to him, i tell him shot stories, play him some nice music, tell him how much i love him. but i never see him before. when he came out from OT, it just bring tears to my eyes. it's unspeakable JOY!

when i was a bachelor, i do not have to worry about anything. just me myself and I. after i got married, i learn that life is not just about me. i need to put my wife in consideration. her view, her feeling, her everything before i make any decision. NOW... i felt that my resposible as the head of the house just increased! now only only need to consider my wife, i need to make decision for my son. and every decision that i make will determine how he will be in the future. it is my resposibility as a father. besides, now i need to work extra hard to find money to support this new family of mine.

my son is really a gift from God. i thank you Lord for blessing me with a son. this "promotion" really just bring to me a whole new level. everyday when i hold him in my arm and smell his hair, that moment is just priceless and speechless. see him grow everyday is really a joy.

my lifestyle is also force to change now. before the arrival of my son, both me and my wife can sleep from night until morning undisturb. the only thing that will wake us up in the morning is my stupid but faithful alarm clock! i am not sure about you. i hate my alarm clock!

now i just got myself a new time bomb! the new "alarm clock" is crazy. the alarm can go off anytime. yes ANYTIME! when the 'alarm' is either hungry, wet, cold, hot, poo-poo, and many others that is yet to reveal, i will be trigger. the best thing about this alarm is... i cant SNOOZE!!! i just have to get out from the cosy comforter and attend to the "alarm". each wake is not just 5min. can be from 1 hour to 4 hours. there goes my sleep. this is really tired both physically and mentally.

BUT... very funny i'm enjoying every single moment from making milk, feeding him, washing his butt, cleaning the poo-poo, changing the nappy, etc.



Dear Lord,
i just pray that You will give me the extra strength to carry on this great responsibility and also to carry out the duty as a good father. Amen!

It's time...

My Baby is coming!!!!


getting ready to go now.. hopefully will update soon...

busy busy busy busy.... so many things to do.. so many things still need to be done.. so many things la...




Dear Lord,

I pray for protection over our family esp mummy and baby.. please watch over us all. give us the strength and also courage to go through this stage of life.

peace and joy be upon us and fill us.

Amen!

My First Blog in Hubby's Blogspot

I didn't know to write an interesting, amusing, attention seeking blog is so TOUGH!!! Need to be careful with the spelling and the grammar which were same as writing a proper essay in University time. Really respect those blogger who are willing to spend long hours of their precious time to write to entertain strangers outside the world and also may be some aliens as well.

Hubby kept pressuring me to write something in his blog in order to make his blog ALIVE!!! "Where got like dat one???" Few weeks ago, I just suggested to him to put a graveyard picture in his blog and declared RIP. *grin* But I think he don't want I guess.

What should I share? Something lovely dovey that makes readers puke? Something personal that readers would start to judge me? Something to show off that makes readers think I am being 'hao lian"? Something stupid to amuse the readers? *scratching my head*

WALAO le...Say dont know what to write, the introduction is getting longer and longer!!! *self amused first*

Just want to let the whole world know that there is still 2 weeks left that we going to welcome the little PUI to our family. Expected due date is 16 Feb 2010.

Feeling? Of course nervous > excited as for me. I really have no idea what to expect at all as i opt for natural birth. An aunty from Church told me is better to opt for natural birth as you can experience the JOY and RELIEF when you know the baby is successfully being "push" out from your tummy. I believe it is true after the long hours of pain and all the struggles.

Really pray that I could be a good mummy for the little one and good wife for the big one after this pregnancy.

Just a short conversation of ours to share

Me: Would you still hold my hand after we have kids?

Hubby: What kind of question are you asking?

Me: Just want to confirm.

You know why I asked? Because I hardly see any parents hold hand when they have kids.

Love,

Kimmy