I am now a father. i mean a F.A.T.H.E.R! i seriously do not know how to express my feeling. i have never imagine myself as a father. wow... to be very honest. it is not easy at all.
my son came on the 11th Feb 2010. when i 1st saw him, i am really speechless. it's like meeting someone who is always with you but you have never see him before. when he was still in my wife's tummy, everynight i sing to him, i speak to him, i tell him shot stories, play him some nice music, tell him how much i love him. but i never see him before. when he came out from OT, it just bring tears to my eyes. it's unspeakable JOY!
when i was a bachelor, i do not have to worry about anything. just me myself and I. after i got married, i learn that life is not just about me. i need to put my wife in consideration. her view, her feeling, her everything before i make any decision. NOW... i felt that my resposible as the head of the house just increased! now only only need to consider my wife, i need to make decision for my son. and every decision that i make will determine how he will be in the future. it is my resposibility as a father. besides, now i need to work extra hard to find money to support this new family of mine.
my son is really a gift from God. i thank you Lord for blessing me with a son. this "promotion" really just bring to me a whole new level. everyday when i hold him in my arm and smell his hair, that moment is just priceless and speechless. see him grow everyday is really a joy.
my lifestyle is also force to change now. before the arrival of my son, both me and my wife can sleep from night until morning undisturb. the only thing that will wake us up in the morning is my stupid but faithful alarm clock! i am not sure about you. i hate my alarm clock!
now i just got myself a new time bomb! the new "alarm clock" is crazy. the alarm can go off anytime. yes ANYTIME! when the 'alarm' is either hungry, wet, cold, hot, poo-poo, and many others that is yet to reveal, i will be trigger. the best thing about this alarm is... i cant SNOOZE!!! i just have to get out from the cosy comforter and attend to the "alarm". each wake is not just 5min. can be from 1 hour to 4 hours. there goes my sleep. this is really tired both physically and mentally.
BUT... very funny i'm enjoying every single moment from making milk, feeding him, washing his butt, cleaning the poo-poo, changing the nappy, etc.
i just pray that You will give me the extra strength to carry on this great responsibility and also to carry out the duty as a good father. Amen!